Do I want to be Excellent?

When should I strive to be good at things, and not just enjoy them?


My desires are simple. Being able to learn, read and write. A great relationship with my loved ones. Cycling. A cup of coffee on the morning.

Much like an early monarch, I aim to do be able things all the time, without constraint. (But without the slavery or the disease).

It’s not obvious that all people want this. Some want to make a huge impact on the world, sacrificing their comfort. Some people might want to be famous, at a detriment to their psychology.

But for me, the goal of endless, simple enjoyment is the axiom for my own happiness.

Despite knowing this, there are some philosophical questions about my happiness that I’m trying to work through.

After a bike ride in the rain to North London, I spoke with a friend whose life and career I really admire. I spoke to him about some of my strategies for living better, but found myself surprised.

He’s one of the happiest guys I know, but said

‘Don’t think too much about happiness, and just focus on being excellent’.

This struck me as odd.

My goal of continued enjoyment doesn’t really say much about being good at things. I just like to do science, and don’t think much about being good at it. I drink coffee without needing to be the best at drinking coffee. I also think that intense focus on result can be perilous - like what I wrote in ‘Don’t Chase It’.

Excellence for its own sake is not part of my formula for happiness.

But I’ve been thinking - maybe it’s not that simple. Maybe, excellence can be useful in the pursuit of enjoyment.

So when should I strive to be good at things, and not just enjoy them?


The reward of excellence is options. In a meritocratic industry, skilled people are bid by different companies for in talent wars. Being excellent really gives one a ‘so what can YOU do for ME’ mentality.

I used to be ‘excellence seeking’. As a kid I was obsessed even with the colours on my report card. This attitude got me in a position to go to a good school, have a decent career, and get good at stuff like math.

This financial and job security has made me less anxious about taking time off. My mind no longer feels the guilt in doing things that don’t make money.

I am assertive enough to leave the office early and on time. No one’s going to fire me, and if they did, I am confident that I would be fine. Because my excellence-seeking past self has shored up resources for my current self.

A caveat is that there the excellence-to-reward ratio differs between different things. But all else equal, producing something of quality is never bad.


So then, how does one be ‘excellent’? I think there are two ways to do this

  • Be better than everyone else at something, or

  • Do something new

I think the former is easy when you’re in school. But now, I think the most efficient way is the latter. And this means finding an edge, rather than just working harder.

One way to get edge is to mix different areas of expertise. The obvious proof is in the success of interdisciplinary science. Physics with math. Biology with physics. Computer science and engineering.

But there are less obvious examples of this, like scientists who are also artists. I’ve read lots papers on creating better visuals for biological processes and machine learning, which has been successful work.

The downside of expertise mixing is that it’s hard. You have to educate yourself in different fields.

Which is why I think there is a different, maybe even stronger ways to get edge.

The idea is to step outside of just your ‘expertise’, and into the territory of your ‘personal situation’.

‘Personal situation’ is everything real about where you are, your life experiences, and your preferences.

Personal situation is also more likely to be unique that just expertise. And it comes for free, you just have to notice it.In my case,

  • I make money at my day job and the hours are good. But I also like science. So, I can use my free time and money to pursue wacky science topics unconstrained. This is an edge over scientists who are constrained by funding requirements.

  • Unlike many physicists, I am not hung up on doing pure theory work. So now I’m exploring physics in biology and chemistry, which is an edge over biologists and chemists who don’t know physics.

  • I like to do different things. This gives me paths outside my usual career, which is an edge over my colleagues who tend to be dedicated to just this one thing, in terms of career longevity.

  • Lived in many developing countries, and being frugal, means I don’t care much about living in ‘nice areas’. So I live in a slightly rougher area of London, with the advantages of cheapness and central-ness, without the cost of being bothered.

You can also use where you live, languages, relationships and nationality to build edge. The bonus is that these kinds of things come organically without active effort.

One of the most natural sources of edge is your passport or citizenship. Lots of people (myself included) migrate from South East Asia to Europe in their career years. Since South East Asia has a low cost of living with great quality of life, there is edge found by having a job in Europe, earning in foreign currency, and then moving back.

I used to not think about this strategy much. But now I do - it’s an edge over people who only stay in one place. Given that I’m from South East Asia and that I’ve saved up some money, wouldn’t it be silly of me NOT to take advantage of that?

The idea of edge is also useful in reframing my constraints and problems. Since constraints are probably unique to me, wouldn’t that mean they are they are also form of edge? Examples:

  • Do you want to change careers, but struggling? Well, since the stakes are low and you don’t care, you can use that as edge. Since you care less, you can work less hours and explore other things.

  • Are you from a developing country? Well, with less opportunity, you have an edge in having more problems to solve if you’re entrepreneurial. Think of the recent boom in West African small businesses.

  • Can’t drive a car? Maybe you should cycle everywhere and get super fit automatically.

In these examples, I’ve turned a tough problem into a source of edge. In the start-up sphere, Paul Graham has repeatedly written about noticing problems around you as a way to generate ideas. Maybe noticing your constraints is a way to get edge.

So, the motto to find ways to get quick excellence, seems to be

‘How I use this fact about me, to my advantage’?

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